“…this tale of undeterred sisterly love is a primal scream that will not be ignored.” – The New York Times
“…a page turner with real heart… At the root of the book is a bold statement about the courage, resilience, and strength young women must have in the fight to be heard and respected.” -Booklist
“A sharp and biting look at the bonds of sisterhood. I loved it.” – Erin A Craig, NYT bestselling author of House of Salt and Sorrows
“Both a heart-pounding thriller and a searing critique of how our society treats girls and women.” -Rachel Lynn Solomon, author of You’ll Miss Me When I’m Gone
“Heartbreaking, heartwarming, and a rollicking good yard that packs both physical and emotional punches.” -Rosaria Munda, author of Fireborne
“The ill effects of rape culture and the systemic lack of support for survivors are deftly explored.” -Kirkus
“Recommended for libraries wanting mysteries with substance.” -School Library Journal
If I Stay meets One of Us is Lying in this gripping contemporary thriller.
When band-geek Ivy and her friends get together, things start with a rousing board game and end with arguments about Star Wars.
Her older sister Autumn is a different story. Enigmatic, aloof, and tough as nails, Autumn hasn’t had real friends–or trusted anyone–in years. Even Ivy.
But Autumn might not be tough enough. After a drug deal gone wrong, Autumn is beaten, bound, and held hostage. Now, trapped between life and death, she leaves her body, seeking help. No one can sense her presence–except her sister.
When Autumn doesn’t come home, Ivy just knows she’s in trouble. Unable to escape the chilling feeling that something isn’t right, Ivy follows a string of clues that bring her closer to rescuing her sister… and closer to danger.
Autumn needs Ivy to find her before time runs out. But soon, both sisters realize that finding her also means untangling the secrets that lead to the truth–about where they’re hiding Autumn, and what Autumn has been hiding.
Read the first five chapters on Bookish First here!
CONTENT WARNING: This book contains discussions of rape/sexual assault and harassment. There is also drug use, violence, bullying, and captivity/kidnapping.
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