Missing Pieces Unofficial Soundtrack!

Music is a huge influence for my writing. I can’t write without music playing. So, chances are, if I’m on my computer and not wearing my headphones, I’m pretending to do work but really just screwing around.

While writing Missing Pieces, there were some songs that really stuck with me and made me think of certain scenes or characters in the book as I was writing. I already wrote about how A Great Big World’s “Say Something” influenced a major scene in this book, but there were lots of other songs too.

I love reading other people’s book playlists, because it helps me get a feel for the book, and is also a great way to discover new music. So here are some of the songs that helped me write my book!

I have no rights to these songs, and the songs and artists listed are not affiliated with me or my book in any way.

Terrible Love – Birdy (originally by The National)

And I won’t follow you/ Into the rabbit hole/ I said I would/ But then I saw/ Your shivered bones/ They didn’t want me to/ It’s a terrible love/ And I’m walking with spiders It takes an ocean not to break

Hearts on Fire – Passenger

Well I don’t know where and I don’t know when/ But I know we’ll be lovers again You know those love songs will break your heart/ Oh darling my hearts on fire

Sorrow – The National

Sorrow’s my body on the waves/ Sorrow’s a girl inside my cake/ I live in a city sorrow built/ It’s in my honey, it’s in my milk Cause I don’t wanna get over you

Silenced by the Night – Keane

In a city like mine, there’s no point in fighting/ I close my eyes, see you and me driving/ If I am a river, you are the ocean/ Got the radio on, got the wheels in motion/ We were silenced by the night/ But you and I, we’re gonna rise again/ Divided from the light/ I wanna love the way we used to then

Freshman – The Verve Pipe

For the life of me/ I cannot remember / What made us think that we were wise/ and we’d never compromise/ For the life of me/ I cannot believe we’d ever die/ For these sins/ We were merely freshmen

I Like the Way This is Going – Eels

I don’t care about the past/ none of it was made to last/ it’s not what who you’ve known/ but who you’re knowing/ I like the way this is going

Feels Like Coming Home – Jetta

It’s hard for the dreamers/ and the cities never sleeping/ but we’re gonna make it/ although we don’t know how/ I pay the high price/ for the joy of a free ride/ cause I got you/ and now that’s all that counts

Leave Your Lover – Sam Smith

You’ll never know the endless nights/ the rhyming of the rain/ Or how it feels to fall behind/ and watch you call his name

Ships in the Night – Mat Kearney

Chasing your dreams since the violent 5th grade/ Trying to believe in your silent own way/ Cause we’ll be ok/ I’m not going away/ Like you watched at fourteen as it went down the drain We’re just fumbling through the grey/ Trying find a heart that’s not walking away/ Turn the lights down low/ Walk these halls alone/ We can feel so far from so close

Between Us – Peter Bradley Adams

Hey stranger or may I call you my own/ I know I don’t know you/ but there’s somewhere I’ve seen you before/ Whatever your name is, whatever you do/ There’s nothing between us I’m willing to lose

Almost Lover – A Fine Frenzy

So long, my luckless romance/ My back is turned on you/ I should’ve known you’d bring me heartache/ Almost lovers always do

A Drop in the Ocean – Ron Pope

I don’t wanna waste the weekend/ If you don’t love me, pretend/ A few more hours then it’s time to go

Something I Need – One Republic

You got something I need/ In this world full of people there’s one killing me/ And if we only die once/ I wanna die with you

All I Want – Kodaline (but I’m obsessed with the cover by Ellie Goulding)

So you brought out the best of me/ A part of me I’ve never seen/ You took my soul and wiped it clean/ Our love was made for movie screens/ But if you loved me/ Why’d you leave me?

Come Home – One Republic

Right now there’s a war between the vanities/ But all I see is you and me/ The fight for you is all I’ve ever known/ So come home

Words – Skylar Grey

It’s so loud inside my head/ With words that I should have said/ And as I drown in my regrets/ I can’t take back the words I never said

Hero – Regina Spektor

I’m the hero of the story/ Don’t need to be saved

Burning Bridges – Chris Pureka

Some fantasies are never meant to be/ realized at all/ and some regrets could be prevented/ if you read the writing on the wall/ oh and sometimes you say you know nothing can happen/ and then she leans over and lifts off your glasses/ and the next thing you know you’re just tangled and guilty/ and you’ve got a head full of liquor and perfume

When You Were Young – The Killers

We’re burning down the highway skyline/ On the back of a hurricane/ That started turning/ When you were young

One Day – Kodaline

You’ve felt this way for far too long/ Waiting for a change to come/ You know you’re not the only one/ And life passes you by/ Don’t be wasting your time/ On your own

Beautiful Girl – INXS

Now where did you find her/ Among the neon lights/ That haunt the streets outside/ Stay with me/ Beautiful girl/ Stay with me

A Lonely September – The Plain White T’s

And I didn’t mean to meet you then/ We were just kids/ And I didn’t mean to give you chills/ The way that I kiss/ And I didn’t mean to fall in love, but I did/ And you didn’t mean to love me back but I know you did I know it’s not the smartest thing to do/ We just can’t seem to get it right/ But what I wouldn’t give to have one more chance tonight

Just Breathe – Pearl Jam

Did I say that I need you?/ Oh, did I say that I want you?/ Oh, if I didn’t I’m a fool you see/ No one knows this more than me/ And I come clean/ Nothing you would take/ Everything you gave

Amen Omen – Ben Harper

I listen to a whisper/ Slowly drift away/ Silence is a loudest/ Parting word you never say I don’t know where you came from/ And I don’t know where you’ve gone/ Old friends become old strangers/ Between the darkness and the dawn

Life Is Beautiful – Vega4

When you run away from harm/ Will you run back into my arms?/ Like you did when you were young/ Will you come back to me?

Stars – Grace Potter and the Nocturnals

I lit a fire with the love you left behind/ And it burned wild and crept up the mountain side/ I followed your ashes into outer space/ I can’t look out the window, I can’t look at this place/ I can’t look at the stars/ They make me wonder where you are

I’m With You – The Stills

The timing’s right/ And the light is soft/ We’ve come from far/ And we came here lost/ We’re moving east/ We’re rolling through/ If you believe in me/ I’ll believe in you

Believe – The Bravery

We sit and grow our roots into the floor/ What are we waiting for? What are we waiting for?/ So give me something to believe/ Cause I am living just to breathe

Not in That Way – Sam Smith

And I hate to say I love you/ When it’s so hard for me/ And I hate to say I want you/ When you make it so clear/ You don’t want me/ I’d never ask you cause deep down/ I’m certain I know what you’d say/ You’d say I’m sorry believe me/ I love you but not in that way

Fix You – Coldplay

And high up above or down below/ When you’re too in love to let it go/ But if you never try you’ll never know/ Just what you’re worth/ Lights will guide you home/ And ignite your bones/ And I will try to fix you

These Days – Nico

I’ve been out walking/ I don’t do too much talking/ These days, these days/ These days I seem to think a lot/ About the things that I forgot to do/ And all the times I had the chance to.

I and Love and You – The Avett Brothers

When at first I learned to speak/ I used all my words to fight/ With him and her and you and me/ Oh but its just a waste of time/ Yeah its such a waste of time

Demon Host – Timber Timbre

As the flames licked my head and my lungs filled up black in their tiny little shack/ It was real and I repent/ All those messages you sent clear as day, but in the night/ Oh I couldn’t get it right

Hope you enjoyed my music list! 🙂 Missing Pieces comes out in e-book on March 3 and print soon after!



My book has a face!

I’m so excited that my book now has a cover! My publisher’s art department put it together, and I LOVE what they designed! I think it perfectly captures the mood of the book, and I love the color scheme.


So before I reveal *the cover,* I wanted to share a little about this book and how it came to be… so allow me a brief moment of egotism:

November 2013. I was working as a social worker in Boston.

office space people skills

I’d been writing on the side for a while, but wasn’t really doing it steadily.

I’d recently made a very difficult decision. I had decided I wanted to take a break from working on the manuscript I’d been writing for over five years.


I couldn’t read or look at the darn thing anymore. It was driving me nuts.


Besides, I had another idea I wanted to develop.

I was thinking about relationships.

I was 25, and had moved in with my then-fiance (now my husband!) the year before.

It was exactly where I wanted to be. It was a good pace for me.

But of course, everyone is different. On Facebook, I saw lots of people my age or younger who were already happily married and had started having children – because that was a good pace for them. It was what they wanted.


Conversely, I had a lot of friends who were happily single and focusing on their careers, travel, and other aspects of life – because that was a good pace for them. It was what they wanted.

Some people seemed happy where they were in the grand timeline of life, others not so much. Regardless, everyone was where they were because of the personal choices they had made.

So I started thinking …. what if it wasn’t a choice?

What if there was a set date you met your future spouse? What if it was when you were a little kid?

What if there was a set timeline on which you had to get married and have children?

What if you couldn’t pick the person either? What if the person was chosen for you when you were a child, and you had to grow up alongside them knowing you would marry them someday – no matter what?

And what if you fell in love with someone else instead?

So that was where my mind was when I was stuck in gridlock on my way to work. Because, Boston.

officespace traffic
When the radio announced New Music, I was bracing myself…



Anyway, it was the song “Say Something” by A Great Big World.
Right away, I just really, really loved that song. It was so pretty! And as a plus, the feminist inside me didn’t cringe about jamming out and enjoying the lyrics (looking at you, Blurred Lines).

The line that stuck with me that day was this: “You’re the one that I love, and I’m saying goodbye.”

I pictured a very vivid scene in my head.
(and I still think of that line during a specific scene in the book.)

Boom. Idea.


It was an idea way out of comfort zone.

Usually the stories I gravitate toward either take place in outer space…



…or have at least one good fight scene.


And this idea was a romance story, which is the last thing I ever would have imagined myself writing, because I’m too awkward.


BUT, I just couldn’t get the characters out of my head.


So I thought, why not take a stab at writing their story?

I started writing this idea the moment I got home from work that day.

I was so excited!


But over the course of the next six months, it became more like this:




Finally coming to this:


So I kept at it.

There was a lot of fast food.


My critique partners read it. I wrote and rewrote the entire book eight times.

Until finally…

It was…. finished.

I submitted my story to publishers. There was a lot of waiting.


Until I found my lovely and amazing publisher!


And after months of editing, drafts, and late night emails… it’s almost time!


So that’s how Missing Pieces came to be.


Without further ado, here is my cover!!



It will be available March 3! 🙂

Here it is on Simon and Schuster! http://books.simonandschuster.com/Missing-Pieces/not-available/9781623421793

I hope you all enjoy it! 🙂

Why I Hate Spoilers

Why I Hate Spoilers

AKA “But the book’s been out for ten years!”

Let me set the scene for you.

It’s a Saturday night, and I’m procrastinating on Twitter instead of doing any number of the things I’m supposed to be doing.

Sunday means Game of Thrones, and I’m eager to see what’s going to happen next in my favorite show.

Then while scrolling, I see someone tweeted this (not verbatim, but close enough) status:

“Spoiler! I love [*character’s name spoiler*]! Too bad they die in the next episode.”


My emotional range went something like this:




I was enraged.

First of all, George RR Martin, how dare you kill [Spoiler!]?!


But more importantly, how dare someone spoil that for me in the first place? Was it so important to them to post this spoilery tweet and ruin it for someone?! Granted, they did do a spoiler warning at the beginning of their tweet — but it’s TWITTER. You have 140 CHARACTERS. How can I NOT see the spoiler? It’s RIGHT THERE.

I tweeted a response to the person, saying that I was annoyed they felt the need to post this. The person tweeted back something along the lines of, “sorry, but the book’s been out for ten years!”

No meme

Thanks, jerk.

That still doesn’t give anyone the right to ruin a book / movie / show / story for anyone else. Maybe someone is behind the curve. Maybe they have a busy schedule and haven’t gotten around to reading / watching the book / show yet. Maybe they just learned about it and are eager to start. IT DOESN’T MATTER. WHY RUIN IT FOR THEM?


Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince came out in 2005. That’s almost 10 years ago (I know, right?). Yet if I see someone reading it now, in 2014, does the fact that it’s been around for almost a decade give me the right to run up and shout “HEY! SNAPE KILLS DUMBLEDORE!”

Ummmm….. NO. That would be a total a-hole move. Because why ruin the magic for someone who is discovering it for the first time?


That’s my rant. And I’m sticking to it.


<3 Meredith